This morning I sat between Lu and Eamon at our bench as the three of us ate bowls of our Banana Bread Ice Cream for breakfast.
Lu said “Remind me to talk to Dad, I heard him go to the toilet at 7:41 last night but I don’t know if I heard the basin, I am not sure if he washed his hands.”
Eamon said “Is it tomorrow? Are we going to Lexi’s house? I had a big sleep.”
And I just sat there. Saying nothing.
Thinking this is what it is all about.
This is what really matters.
I’ve been so sick with this pregnancy. I’ve struggled to eat well and I haven’t exercised. At times I’ve been moody and more often than not I haven’t slept.
Yet I wouldn’t change it for anything.
It is these little moments that remind me that the day to day troubles that play on my mind do not really matter. They are things that will pass. They are distractions from what and where true joy lies. They are the necessities but not the priorities.
The only thing that will ever give me happiness that warms me from the inside out, that erases my insecurities and washes away my concerns is my family.
It is their unconditional love and acceptance that makes my world a grand place to be.
So, little one, you and I will no doubt go on as we have been, with me feeling sick and your kicks being a constant reminder that it is all so very worth it.
I’ll hold onto the illness, the eating poorly, the laziness and the sleepless nights knowing full well that I cannot get it back and that I will not have it again.
In 12 month’s time you will be joining the three of us at the bench, eating your ice cream and doing something of your very own to make me smile.
In 12 month’s time I’ll sit at that bench silently smiling, wondering how I came to be so blessed.
Crunchy Chocolate Cups
- 1 teaspoon natural vanilla extract
- 2 tablespoons honey*
- 3 tablespoons coconut oil
- 4 tablespoons cacao or cocoa
- 5 tablespoons crunchy peanut butter
- Place the ingredients into a medium sized bowl and gently heat to softened the oil and peanut butter.
- Once softened mix until the mixture is smooth and well combined.
- Spoon tablespoons of the mixture into the holes of a mini silicon muffin tray.
- Place in the freezer to set.
- Store and serve straight from the freezer.
*you can use rice malt syrup if you prefer.